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She had learned long ago it was always easier to throw a grenade and walk away without looking back to see the blast and the blood and the wreckage she left in her wake. She had chewed her way through the guts of this galaxy and never once turned to witness the smoldering remains. It was the only way she ever managed to keep walking. She always had a job—and the results of it were someone else’s. That was how the universe moved.

But she had made a mistake. She had turned around. She had lingered too long and now it was swallowing her, that stupid sentiment that would someday get her killed, accompanied by the relief that always came with sinking into her nature like it was soft snow.

— Mackenzie Lee, Gamora and Nebula

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[thedreamer]

I only want you to be you. And the you that you are is someone I care about. But I don't think you believe me either way. Or maybe I'm wrong! Admittedly it's rare, but it wouldn't be the first time. The being wrong part, not the caring part, I mean.

[ He's an idiot, that's a universal truth. ]

[furibund]

[ She cannot express her ugh any more than the long pause between responses. Some part of her still thinks he's lying to her in that not so genuine way of someone claiming to care about everyone. She's seen more of him, though, and some part of her finds him important. The part that latched onto the idea of someone seeing her withstanding. ]

[ Still, she can't just say that, right? Not with all those fake memories jumbling things up especially? ]

I know you care, you bumbling moron.

[thedreamer]

[ Those long years in that false reality — there was a lot in there he wasn't proud of, but there were good things, too. And the time spent knowing her better, getting closer to her, it was important to him. Though, he won't use those memories as some sort of assumption that they ought to be best friends suddenly. ]

Oh, good, I've got that right, at least! And still upholding my reputation as an idiot, good to know that hasn't changed. You wouldn't be the first to say it.

I won't keep you, I only wanted to check on you. I hope we can see each other again soon in Nocwich! I'll smuggle in a sample of some Jammie Dodgers for you to try, I've been perfecting them.

[furibund]

I won't be the last either. You'll make sure of that.

[ In one way or another, she thinks, by being himself or being so insistent. Not that she's starting to think the insistency is a bad thing... But she frowns. Shouldn't it be she that's worried about him? He's sounding fine enough, but something in her tells her he isn't. ]

What the hell is a Jammie Dodger?

... You can contact me whenever you want this way. I'll make sure to answer.

[ Even if it is just one word. Which it might be, from time-to-time. ]

[thedreamer]

Jammie Dodger! Delightful thing! Traditionally a biscuit made from shortcake, with fruity berry filling. I've done my best approximation of it here, obviously lacking a few things. I'll bring some 'round the next time we meet!

And ditto to you, Nebula. I'll always be here.

[ Whether that's meaningful to her or not, or perhaps just an annoyance, he will be here. And he'll check on her again. ]

[furibund]

[ The dice has betrayed Nebula's eternal attempt at feigning disinterest- Which is to say... She doesn't immediately respond. In fact, it's several hours later of stewing on the matter before she does.]

[ For someone who's childhood was starvation as both a lesson and reward... She spent a portion of it going any food was better than no food. She has started to stop to appreciate the food and beverages she's received, but she's never really gone out of her way to try different things. Whatever was available was fine... Which, she practically insulted Himeka's love of food for. It's the other woman's insistence on her trying new foods and learning what she likes that she thinks about - flusters over - and wherein she otherwise would have ignored the suggestion does come back to it:]

I'll look forward to it.

[ That's all she says but the sincerity is there. ]