[ Nebula grunts at Hayame's "maybe," a sound that said she believed it more true than it wasn't. She doesn't say as much, knows when to stay her tongue even if there's something more biting. But then, Nebula may be no breeding stable jinba but she was raised and trained to be a knife, nothing more, nothing less. Only good to her father as long as she fought and came home - and if she died there would be no mourning. ]
[ That was the life she had been used to for so long. Even if it's not now, the scars are etched into herself enough that she eats she stews. She feels the burning eyes of the shopkeep and resists the growing urge to turn and yell at him. Yell at all of them. ]
What they saw. [ She laughs, the sound with no humor and sounding more like a rasp than not. ] I did nothing of celebration in there.
[ If she did to anyone's eyes it was not to hers - All she saw was weakness after weakness. But then, in her opinion, a win would be through fighting and most of those times were worked through with emotion and resilience. ]
[You were a Guardian, Hayame says and that makes her stop for the first time. To swallow thickly as she glares down at the food. ]
I am a Guardian. [ Refuted, quickly - more an assertion to herself than to Hayame. She had once used those words "was a Guardian," when they'd met - that she had retired and she had. But now in Kenos she's pulled back to that world; And if she's the only Guardian of the Galaxy left in the entire damned cosmos she would die a Guardian. She would die for her family. ]
[ She ignores the emotion behind the conviction. ] I was an Avenger, too. "Earth's mightiest heroes." [ She wants to scoff at the thought but there's a further point. ] And a Daughter of Thanos.
[ Despite the factual way she says it there's something stilted in the phrase, said more like a curse than it is to be proud of. She tears at a strip of chicken. ] ... There were people who knew of us. Or tried to gift the other things. Weapons. Trinkets. Stupid goats.
[ STUPID GOATS!! She doesn't pause. ] Most of them did not look at me. Most of them still knew me for what I did under my father's control.
... I do not blame them.
[ There is nothing about her for them to want to admire. So she tells herself. It sure is a good thing she doesn't know the extent of what Earth people are doing. Cosplaying as her would be horrific to know! ]
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[ That was the life she had been used to for so long. Even if it's not now, the scars are etched into herself enough that she eats she stews. She feels the burning eyes of the shopkeep and resists the growing urge to turn and yell at him. Yell at all of them. ]
What they saw. [ She laughs, the sound with no humor and sounding more like a rasp than not. ] I did nothing of celebration in there.
[ If she did to anyone's eyes it was not to hers - All she saw was weakness after weakness. But then, in her opinion, a win would be through fighting and most of those times were worked through with emotion and resilience. ]
[ You were a Guardian, Hayame says and that makes her stop for the first time. To swallow thickly as she glares down at the food. ]
I am a Guardian. [ Refuted, quickly - more an assertion to herself than to Hayame. She had once used those words "was a Guardian," when they'd met - that she had retired and she had. But now in Kenos she's pulled back to that world; And if she's the only Guardian of the Galaxy left in the entire damned cosmos she would die a Guardian. She would die for her family. ]
[ She ignores the emotion behind the conviction. ] I was an Avenger, too. "Earth's mightiest heroes." [ She wants to scoff at the thought but there's a further point. ] And a Daughter of Thanos.
[ Despite the factual way she says it there's something stilted in the phrase, said more like a curse than it is to be proud of. She tears at a strip of chicken. ] ... There were people who knew of us. Or tried to gift the other things. Weapons. Trinkets. Stupid goats.
[ STUPID GOATS!! She doesn't pause. ] Most of them did not look at me. Most of them still knew me for what I did under my father's control.
... I do not blame them.
[ There is nothing about her for them to want to admire. So she tells herself. It sure is a good thing she doesn't know the extent of what Earth people are doing. Cosplaying as her would be horrific to know! ]